Let us like.

Last night I needed to write.
My mind was spazzing with so many frayed ideas.
I couldn't concentrate on doing anything or on just one of these ideas.
So I decided to write.
I wanted a quote to write off of.
I figured that would help me pick an idea to go off of and allow me to write with out a lot of ranting and rambling.
In my search for a quote I got slightly distracted.
I love vlogbrothers quotes.
A lot of them could have been used to write, but I chose not to at the time.
But this whole time, my mind was still aching with the need to write something.
Anything.
So I went to bed that night, got the journal and pen on my bedside table, and wrote.
I wanted to write some sort of narrative story, but I still had not picked a quote to go from, so I just wrote poems.
They both turned out pretty ranty and suckish, but I'm happy with how they turned out.
When I was finished, I told myself I was going to put them here, on my blog, today.
But then I realized that I'm not going to do that.
Not only because I don't believe in my writing abilities, but because my writings sometimes have topics that I write about only because I can't say it out loud.
I try to hide my largest insecurities or things that bother me from most people.
Posting poems that explore these topics would not be hiding them.
So, while I love writing, and love sharing my splattered brain with people, I can't.
Not until I write about more in general, not about what I know and feel.
I tend to write about things that make me sad or angry, not things that make me happy.
Why is that, though?
Why do people tend to dwell on things that are negative, and not positive?
Arn't the feelings just as strong?
It's like Hang Green said, "I think that it's important to like stuff, cause we spend a lot of time thinking about things we don't like. Whether its the world ending, or inequality, or sex and the city. We often just accept the things that we like, and complain a lot about the things that we don't like. But if we could, like, intensely dwell on the really great things in life the way we intensely dwell on the negative things in life; I think that would be fantastic."