TUMB

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So the last Harry Potter movie came out last week. Unlike many people, it wasn't the end of my childhood because, even though I've always enjoyed Potter, I didn't become totally involved until I read the books four years ago. I was already basically a teenager before I got involved so it wasn't my childhood like with other people. I cried a lot during the movie. At the things I was seeing. I felt the excitement oozing out of every person in the theater. But I did not cry at it being the end. The people I saw it with commented that they were shocked I wasn't crying and freaking out more. I kept saying that I was going to later. And I really thought I would. But I didn't. Yes, it has not completely hit yet. But I don't think that has anything to do with it. I think the ending of the movies came at the best possible time in my life. I just graduated high school! I mean, that there... the amount of effort it took just to move on was pretty immense. That came the same time I had to deal with leaving behind the marching band and facing the fact that I was going to have to soon leave behind so many people who mean so much to me. Harry Potter ending just kind of came with it. Made it all easier. I'm ready to go to Towson. I'm so excited, too. It's 35 days away. 5 weeks from today. I'm super super super excited.

The more I think about it the more it all just... makes sense. You graduate from high school. You may not want to and you may not be ready but it's something you're forced to do. And you are forced to be ready for the next step in life which is, more often than not, college. The process of graduation and leaving high school behind..it just makes you ready for college. I mean, I personally believe I was ready before graduation and I have been excited for quite a while... but it's just a way of thinking about it.

I'm super excited for TUMB. I only met maybe half of my section but so far they are all awesomeee! I feel like all of the new members alone make up the size of the WHS MB which is really awesome. I would talk more about my experience at marching band but... you know... I don't want to. It may sound dumb or mean or something but it's kinda of something that I don't want to share with everyone. Some stories and stuff and just general I'm having fun type of this, yeah. But.... it's my thing I guess. I have a new band now. I new family. I still have great friends in the high school band and I don't want anything to change with them but things kind of have to at some level. They are going to get close with some other people and I believe I am going to make a lot of friends at band and college in general. I want to stay close with everyone but realistically there are going to be some people I will end up growing apart from. I want to visit band a lot and involve myself in the high school band a lot but... I've moved on. It's not my place anymore. If I do visit everyone in a while it might just make it difficult to leave again. Especially if people don't really care when I show up. So yeah. It's not my place anymore. I wanna hear about and watch the band. But... yeah. Not mine. Just like the college thing is mine. TUMB is my place to be and talk about and I want to talk to my friends about it and everything but they are not there and it's not really their place to be... yet. It's the same, really.

I keep getting a lonely and feel like...i dunno. It's just constantly in the back of my mind. But I don't really want to talk about that because... I guess it doesn't matter.

So my mood.... content.