*smiles*

I feel.... better now. Like, just those few words- mostly meaningless- exchanged helped the way I was feeling. I'm still unsure what I am feeling. Towards that whole situation and every thing *cough* that is a part of it... but it's better. Better than it was. I can feel at peace at how it ended. Which is good.

Band camp starts tomorrow.
I am not looking forward to most of it.
You know, the death and all.
But I am looking forward to getting away from my family.
Leaving any other issues at home.
Working for something bigger than any of us will imagine.
Proving myself. Hopefully.
The preview show.
Oh yes, our first show.
Spending hours upon hours around people.
Some I hate, some I dislike, some I am indifferent toward, some I like, some I love.
Having those awesome people there be enough to outweigh the notsome.
Trying to keep my ribbon on one wrist.
I moved it last night.
The twenty one days begins, starting today.